I know it has only been a few hours since i have written you Jezmyne, but i felt like i needed to express some things that are on my mind. I wanted to talk about me going back to school in a week. I am quiet nervous to return. Dont get me wrong, i absolutely LoVE being at school! It is the first place that I can honestly say that I feel like I belong. Not that i didnt feel like I belonged before I went to school, but here its like I fit. I am surrounded by people who fit me not just by their knowledge but by their personalities, qualities, beliefs, goals an aspirations. The people here have become my family. I can say that I love them an I would do a lot for them. I have my family of 12 there whom i am the most close with. They are my rock. But after speaking with a few of them, an even I agree, that we need to tone it down this semester. We need to not hang out so much an focus more on school. But it hurts m inside to think that i am losing the people that i have grown so close to this past semester. I dont want to lose them an it scares me when they say they are going to be more to themselves. It feels like they are abandoning me. But i need to in a sense, abandon them. I need to study an do better. But i think i value my friends more. I know that this semester is going to change i just wanted to express myself so i knew how i felt about it as well.
Good bye til later! <3
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