Self Image

So this blog probably isnt coming from the best place in me that it could cus im a little upset an depressed but anyway. I was sitting here listening to music here in the dark in my room thinking about why i am alone on a friday night, in college. An after a lot of debating in my head I came to the realization that I am upset because I think that other girls, other people, look better than I do an because of that I get mad with myself an others. All i want is to be able to wear that one outfit that has all the guys all over me. Or i want it to be when i walk into a room people turn an look. I want to be able to show of my legs, my arms, an have a nice butt. I want bigger breasts an I want a smaller stomach. I hate what i have let myself become an i want to take the easy way out of it. but i just cant afford it. I want to be the person that i see an imagine in my head.

The thing that surprises me the most is, that even tho i look awful there is still one guy in the world who loves me for me. He makes me feel special an i want to just hold on to him an never let go. I love this man an he makes me feel like that dream girl that I want to be so badly lol But that was my sob story. An i know ppl will say when u get fed up enough you will do something about it. True but its just not that easy. So keep ur mouth closed b4 i have to do something about it lol