Not up to Par

So tonight was a night that tested me as a person, my ego, an my friendship. My best friend and I tried out for the same job organization. This organization is for the pretty, and skinny females of the university whom the guys are all over. I dont know why i tried out, really I do. But i was doing it because my friend wanted me to try out and I knew that it would be good for her. But i feel as if reality has hit me. I feel like no matter how smart, well rounded, and how hard i try to be pretty, i will never quiet be at that level. Just to be told no and to look back at the situation and realize deep down that, that was the only reason that I did not make it. I know that everything was in order, and i know that I had the refrences baisically from God and i was rejected. I dont know what else I could of done, but what I do know is that I am going to try my best to be that person that they are looking for. Because I want it sooo bad. I can see myself, i can feel myself, and i can believe in myself to be an Auburn University Tigerette!